Well, I just had my second 20+ BI downswing in the last five weeks.  IMO, a minor downswing is 10 BIs but a 20+ is a major that only happens a few times a year for most decent regs.  So to have two majors within such a short timeframe blows.  The graph does not include a boatload of non-ev run-bad.  Altho I'll intentionally make the spewy play from time to time, I'm generally a fairly conservative player.  It's not like I'm jamming every A6o pre.  So it take a huge confluence of factors to get me to a 20BI downswing.  Obviously the ev recovery with actual cash lagging far behind blows, but that's variance.

What's really gross is I've been running so poorly on rivers that even when I get AA aipf vs whatever, I feel a sense of dread as the turn and rivers come out.  Like altho I know the other guy is drawing to a few outs, I just expect it to happen.  Runner runner flush, runner runner straight, donk hitting his two pair, etc.  It's a horrible feeling... especially since I'm generally more of an optimist by nature.  I just don't see how pessimists can go thru life feeling this way.

But Nick Rivers gave me a valuable tip, which I will share with you, to get over such fears:
 This easy-to-follow plan has been handed down from The Greats, and is now being passed along to you at no cost: 
   1. Man up
   2. Win

Life (and poker) is not that complicated when you take a step back and get some perspective.  Oh and I made up the rest of the downswing in my last session.

WHAT'S FOR DINNER?

Usually when Mrs. Fly is getting rid of leftovers (in this case, lobster bisque and skirt steak), she sometimes makes a little somethin' somethin' on the side to enhance the dinner.  This time, it was fried shrimp.  Yeah - I know I'm supposed to be on a diet.  But shrimp with panko breadcrumbs really kicks ass.  She even made a spicy cream sauce to go with it.

Thanks Mrs. Fly!  And yes - I will be "thanking you" later.  ;-)